I am the queen of starting an exercise routine and a healthy eating plan and will lose 30 to 40 pounds in two mounts then stop gain it all back and have hell to try it again. This last time I did that (quit) and gain so much that I hate how I look in the mirror every day; as well as how it’s affected me mentally and emotionally. It’s even gotten so bad that I don’t want to leave my home. I don’t want to continually keep giving up on myself; I can’t accept that hellish circle of self-damage anymore. So today is my now, tomorrow is my future and yesterday will always be my past….