OK, so after missing 10 days of the 30 Day Shred (which is, after all, 33% of the program LOL!), I have done 5 days in a row of it! Go me :) I even did Level 3 today, a bit sooner than I was planning (was going to do it on Saturday)... so ... I feel good about that.
I am really struggling to eat right and exercise at the same time. I feel like I can eat/track calories really well when its all I do, or I can exercise every day, but I can't track calories and exercise. What gives?! It can't be THAT hard. Just something I need to work harder at doing, I suppose. So I haven't tracked calories in probably a week or so.
I have a feeling that when I bust through this 190-block, I will get back to losing at a reasonable rate. Its just the busting out of it that is the frustrating part!!
I just need to find that place in my head where I am back on track with everything, I guess. Counting calories doesn't exactly suck up my entire day anymore (it sorta did when I first started), but it is something I have to concentrate on doing, and lately its been very easy to just say, "I'll start it back up tomorrow." Well tomorrow never happens.
My 3 year old called me fat yesterday. He's making verbal observations about the sizes of things nowadays - 'big truck!' (semi truck) and 'baby truck' (one of his toy trucks) - everything is either big, or a baby. If its REALLY big, he'll just repeat the word big a few times until he feels that you understand how large it is. lol. Anyway, yesterday he was telling me that I have a 'big big big big big big big big BIG tummy' and then he informed me that Dada also has a BIG BIG BIG BIG tummy and he only has a baby tummy. Parker - the baby - has a "big baby tummy" though... haha! Sometimes I think it takes seeing yourself through your child's eyes for some things to really hit home. I mean, I can see that I'm overweight, but so can my kid... and he hasn't learned the fine art of sugar-coating (which is good!), so he's just upfront about it! Instead of letting it sting and hurt my feelings, I'm using it as motivation. I can't speak for my husband, but my son will have at least one parent who isn't sporting a 'BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG tummy'!! :)
Have a lovely weekend