CHUNKYGIRL301

I HAVE TURNED TO FOOD ALL MY LIFE. AS A YOUNG GIRL FOOD WOULD ALWAYS BE MY COMFORT FOR ANYTHING. WHEN I WAS HAPPY I WOULD EAT. WHEN I WAS SAD I WOULD EAT. WHEN I WAS AFRAID I WOULD EAT. AS I AM NOW A THIRTY YEAR OLD WEIGHING 295LBS I REALIZE HOW MUCH FOOD IS DESTROYING MY LIFE AND THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH FOOD. I ACTUALLY WAKE UP ALL HOURS OF THE NIGHT EATING. MY DAY WOULD EASY CONSIST OF PEAS N' RICE, BBQ RIBS, COLESLAW, MACARONI, THREE FRUIT SNACKS, THREE RICE KRISPIE TREATS, THREE FAMOUS AMOS COOKIE PACKS, GRITS EGGS (3), CHEESE, HAM, SODAS (3), CHICKEN AND FRIES, FOUR SLICES OF PIZZA, A BACONATOR COMBO AND A VANILLA FROSTY. AND THIS IS AN AVERAGE DAY. THEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH HYPERTENSION. THIS WAS A BIG BLOW TO ME ( BUT WHAT WOULD I EXPECT WHEN EATING LIKE THIS). I AM TRYING TO TAKE A HANDLE ON MY LIFE AND TAKING IT MINUTE BY MINUTE. THIS IS DAY 1. I AM GOING TO BLOG EVERY DAY. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. I KNOW THIS IS SOMETHING I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO BUT WOULD BE LYING IF I SAID I AM NOT AFRAID. IT SCARES ME TO DEATH BUT I KNOW GREATER IS HE WHO IS IN ME THAN HE WHO IS IN THE WORLD AND I HAVE THE FRUIT OF SELF CONTROL. GOD HAS BROUGHT THIS TO MY ATTENTION BECAUSE IF I DON'T CHANGE I AM GOING TO DIE...............SO.......DAY 1 AND I WILL GET THROUGH THIS DAY. TODAY I AM GOING TO FOCUS ON THE SOURCE OF MY OVER EATING AND JOURNAL DOWN EVERYTHING. HAVE A NICE DAY AND BE ENCOURAGED