Well this morning was a bust. I had my mind set on waking up at 5 am again with my ex and starting my day. I was looking forward to running, cleaning the office so everyone is happy and finally getting organized. But once again ive been overtaken by sleep. I hate that I love it so much. Im so upset that I took this morning off and I will run my butt off tonight to make up for it. Then in the am I will do some strength training. I hate that I will put my mind to something but im so quick to get pulled away from it. But no excuses this time. Everyone has to understand what I am going through. I really really want to do this and keep it up and I feel like a huge failure when I dont.
On the bright side I did have an amazing night last night. There was some work out in there. lmao. I found out to that my other ex (phil) is completely physco and I have a new found best friend in my ex (jay). I just really hope things just go smooth this time around. I did find myself last night not hating the way I looked and was able to do alot more things I normally wouldnt bc of the angles. So in that aspect I feel great and I can really feel a difference. I havent really been weighting myself, bc i just feel that brings me down. So Im kinda just going day by day with pictures I take and how I feel.
Goodluck you guys. I love reading your blogs. Alot of you crack me up and give me a great attitude to realize my mistakes wont kill me. And others help me with the education of this whole diet thing. lol. Thanks a bunch.
Ps: New bathing suit pic hopefully tomorrow.